We all have our obsessions β that T. Some are juvenile interests that make our lives more entertaining, while others can slide into dangerous territory like that ex, for example. This obsession of rewatching things sounds like an activity only reserved for a soon-to-be grad who is now indefinitely stuck back at home with her parents, longing for the touch of another human and to wake up from this nightmare just to be faced with the alarming reality of a global pandemic. But no, this has been a long-running habit of mine since I decided at 15 to watch Buffy again, Skins a few more times, and my favorite movies of Rushmore , Days of Summer albeit its manic pixie dream girl trope , and Across the Universe every time I was down in the dumps β a bit too often in high school.
I thoroughly enjoyed going back to a piece of media I had watched years prior, diving back into a past self that was seeing those scenes with fresh eyes, and that, on a deeper level, was in a totally different point in life β maybe of growth, maybe even of devolution, but not quite to a point of obsession. But then, in the winter of , I was going through my first real gay heartbreak, the kind you see in movies, although this melodrama was just a product of being a baby gay.
Yet, at the time, I thought I was experiencing true pain , and just like that, Call Me by Your Name was released only four days later.
I watched it again when I went home for winter break, this time in the solitude of my childhood bed, hitting me where it hurt even harder, realizing that I was officially obsessed with the film.
This was my way of moving on , I told myself. I found myself watching it again, years later, during another soon-to-happen breakup. So, was I only obsessively rewatching media to remedy my sadness? My conflicting feelings were masked by the ten-day-long dream-turned-reality of being in Europe to watch gay movies a requirement of the trip! The Georgian film of And Then We Danced , the queer coming-of-age story of Merab, a competitive dancer attempting to find his place through the conservative tradition of Georgia and his budding romance with fellow dancer Irakli, wrapped those feelings up perfectly.
